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I open my eyes
I try to see but I’m blinded by the white light
I can’t remember how
I can’t remember why
I’m lying here tonight
And I can’t stand the pain
And I can’t make it go away
No I can’t stand the pain
How could this happen to me
I made my mistakes
I’ve got no where to run
The night goes on
As I’m fading away
I’m sick of this life
I just wanna scream
How could this happen to me
Everybody’s screaming
I try to make a sound but no one hears me
I’m slipping off the edge
I’m hanging by a thread
I wanna start this over again
So I try to hold onto a time when nothing mattered
And I can’t explain what happened
And I can’t erase the things that I’ve done
No I can’t
How could this happen to me
I made my mistakes
I’ve got no where to run

The night goes on
As I’m fading away
I’m sick of this life
I just wanna scream
How could this happen to me
I made my mistakes
I’ve got no where to run
The night goes on
As I’m fading away
I’m sick of this life
I just wanna scream
How could this happen to me

So we enter into yet another horrible time in my life. I know everyone probably has bigger problems then me but hey, im not saying mines the biggest .. just that if I don't get this out then im going to explode.(which hopefully not to many people want)

Anyway, this is how it goes! I've been "going out" with my guy Jacob for over a week, prolly close to two weeks..I can't quite remember the day we made things "official" but yah. And then this past weekend I was hanging out and talking tp a friend of mine i dont get to see much and yatta yatta yatta. Well it came around time for him to go home cuz i was staying where we were and he wasn't(duh), we hugged then I left. Woopie doo. Well it came time to come home and all I wanted to do is come online and talk to Jacob...that was sunday. I still haven't seen him online yet. Well last night im like "ok, maybe he isnt allowed online" so i try calling..he isnt even home. Could he not take the few moments to send his stinkin girlfriend if he was going away for a few days! Grr...

Well Sunday night was interesting. I had this whole guilt trip going because I was out with other guys while he was prolly at home wishing I was there too. Yah well considering it sent me to tears and i havent even heard from him...GUILT TRIP GONE! UGH! I duno what to do...